Really rough week....

I've had such a hard week, actually the past 2 weeks have been pretty rough. I've been having ebay problems.

The biggest problem that I've had was that I didn't listen to everyone who told me what to do, and just kept moving forward, trying to show chibitude and benefit of the doubt. But what happened in the end was that everything just went sour and now I feel so totally unhappy that anything chibi could cause such feelings for all involved. sigh.............

I've been bumming and crumbing all day over this. Contemplating stopping sculpting all together, thinking of taking a couple months off, finding another place to sell, selling directly from my website... those are some of the thoughts. I'm just so upset by all of this.

I just want to crawl under a rock and disappear.

The way that I've always tried to deal with problems, is that if I can please everyone except myself, that's what I'd do. I'd always put my neck out as far as I could to solve something.

But this time, to solve things for one direction, meant hurting in the other direction and visa versa. And though people were telling me that I was doing nothing wrong and that I shouldn't feel bad, I did and do!

There's a part of me that wants to go to my group and whine and let everyone tell me that I did ok, and that I was left no choice.....but I don't like it when people do that. It would make me feel better, but I don't think it would be fair, because then there would only be one side of the story.

Which is pretty much why I'm not saying anything of any substance here either, because although it's my blog, and it's my place to just speak my mind, I still want to be fair to all who were/are involved in my problem.

I guess I just wanted to share that I've had a very emotional week, and a very tough problem on ebay with a customer, and that I tried my ultimate best to be the right kind of person with an open heart and trusting chibitude. But in the end, it was all for naught. I'm unhappy, the other person is unhappy, other people who were directly involved are unhappy, and it just plain sucks!

Chibitude level: 0/10