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January 30, 2008

Newly found determination

I feel so much better now! It's a hard lesson when you learn that chibitude is no guarantee of happy dealings. But it's good to know. I have since found out through the dollmaking world that the person whom I was dealing with has a history with others of similar experiences.

The reason this makes me feel a million times better, is that now I realize that all the benefit of the doubt that I gave, and the doubts that I still felt after everything started settling, were unneeded.

And I've had a talk with the other person, (the important one) and we're ok, which means SOOOOOOO much more to me. I hate to have hurt anyone in any way. And it was eating at my insides.

There's no denying that I still wish the problems with the original incident had worked out and ended on an up level. I don't like the idea that someone associates Maddy, or chibis with anything negative. But as you've told me, you can't please everyone.

Everything is behind me now, granted I got a little hate mail today, but I can take it. I understand that when someone is hurt, they often need to lash out to feel better. I'm ok with that. I hope that this is the end of all of this, but if not, I've got quite a few more vertebrae in my backbone that are still holding strong.

I'll just keep on keeping on, and not let this change the way I look at people. And even the person whom is upset with me, they still have my compassion.